I have a book I have enjoyed for years, The Complete Writings of Florence Scovel Shinn. She was a metaphysical healer and lover of the Bible. It was the first time I could have some peace with the Bible, that I saw it from a whole different perspective.
She talks about hunches. “Never ignore a hunch!” she is adamant. Those hunches will lead you to what you need and where you need to go. They are the guides and maps to your destiny.
It is downright terrifying to just follow a vague hunch. Nutty really. But we all have had those nights or mornings we wake up and know that we aren’t living our true life. We are not on our path or even remotely doing what we were destined to do. We wake up in a strange life and wonder how the hell we got all the way over here! Just like the song from Talking Heads:
And you may find yourself living in a shotgun shack
And you may find yourself in another part of the world
And you may find yourself behind the wheel of a large automobile
And you may find yourself in a beautiful house, with a beautiful wife (or husband/partner)
And you may ask yourself, “Well… how did I get here?”
Ah, this song makes me giggle a little. It happens to us all.
And maybe you just need to tweak something small like make amends with an old friend or be nicer to a partner. Maybe we need to read a book about ways to parent better or focus on being a bit cleaner and keeping the house tidier.
Then there are the big things. We may need to leave a partner or a job because the partner or job causes us misery. We may need to move out of a house that we detest…or find a way to recreate it with paint and soap into a home we adore?
Whatever it is that we need to mend, clean, heal, move, quit, or restart…the answers are right there in your soul. Not out there on the internet or in a book or talking to 50 different people about the subject. No, the solutions and answers are right there in your heart.
All you need to do is get quiet. You can’t hear Spirits instructions with that busy mind or if you spend your days on Facebook going through the many emotional gyrations that come with that site. Worry blocks guidance. Obsessions, addictions, anger…they all block the messages you could be receiving to help you grow and thrive.
Spend your days practicing quiet. Try your hand at baking by hand (not a bread machine that has become very popular these days). Be quiet and in the moment when you knead the dough. Be in the moment feeling the warm water and seeing the bubbles when you wash the dishes by hand.
My house is very old. Over a hundred years old. I do many things by hand and not always by choice. I wash every dish and fork and pan by hand (not by choice but lack of a dishwasher), I hang laundry by hand on a line outside, I make bread and food by hand and from scratch, and I have a huge garden and orchard. The work keeps me grounded. When I feel upset and the kids are getting on my last nerve, I go out and water and weed by hand or I chase them from the kitchen and watch a movie on Netflix while I cook good food for all of us.
I have jumped into the unknown many times in the last two decades and I am now here. I live in a charming forest town and have children. I am a housewife and author. My dreams are actualized. But I’m not done there. I still have dreams and desires. I love to create and recreate. That is one reason I rearrange my house over and over and purge constantly.
I used to have a lot of bad habits. Now I just drink coffee with zeal. I’ve replaced many bad habits with good ones such as long walks with kids and dogs or without, all depends on the mood. Learning to cook and nest, raise children. Decorating a home from Goodwill and Craigslist. Budgeting with meager funds and making us feel wealthy. For some this is depressing, for me life is delightful and fulfilling. Writing. I love to write. It is my happy place and it makes us some side money.
However, I will be honest. Everytime I decided to change my life I did it drastically and it was hard. There were very lonely times, lots of crying and wailing, being broke and counting out change for a weeks worth of groceries, and feeling lost.
And it was so worth it in the end.